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[Wednesday
April 5th, 2006 at 7:08pm] |
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love my life&love him!
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[Thursday
March 9th, 2006 at 6:08pm] |
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ugh, so over everything.
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[Thursday
March 2nd, 2006 at 9:43pm] |
so once again, i am clubless again for soccer.
yea, fuck that!i need a team....
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[Saturday
February 4th, 2006 at 12:48pm] |
o also, nothing will bring my team down, nothing. were proving everyone wrong this year! were taking it, taking it all, with or without everyones respect. ur hate n ur negativity only makes us stronger. so watch us, watch us become champions no matter how far we go.
8-2-2 MHS GIRLS VARSITY SOCCER!
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[Saturday
February 4th, 2006 at 12:10pm] |
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k so the first thing im going to say is FUCK YOU!!! n u know who ur.
so now ill begin. im going to try not to say anything rude or mean but it might be a lil hard for me. i shouldnt even have to write any of this in here but i think i should n stand up for myself, my coach, n my team.o n by the way, my coach is FRANK PALETTA! so if u dislike him or hate him or whatever u feel towards him, READ THIS n if u have something to say to me bout it, come up to my face n say whatever u want, i would love to talk to u
...a lot of things have happened my junior year of highschool soccer n till this day everything has been the best ever. i have never met a group of girls that have meant so much to me n i have never had three of the best coachs ever. i feel so lucky to have the oppuritinity to be on the varsity soccer team to play with a group of amazing players n be coached by amazing coaches. everyone has worked so hard to get to where we r today n everyone has played with their heart n treated a team not only with respect for eachother but we played with our heart! our coaches have always n i mean ALWAYS cared about every individual on our team n they have made that perfectly clear to us that they care for us with or without soccer. my team means the world to me n i have grown so much as a person n as a player with them n with my coaches. now i know not everyone likes my team or likes my coaches but i do, i love them! i understand everyone has their own differences, their own opinons but sometimes u need to keep them to urself n not announce to the public ur feelings. but in this case, im going to cuz so far i have sat back n listened to so many people sit n critisize(sp) my coach frank or his daughter kaitlin or even my whole team put together.to the ones who say all those comments bout frank, u need to stop or u need to stop announcing them, keep them to urself. or why dont u just get ur lil group of critiziers n talk within urselfs n not to the ones who truly love n respect frank. i have known frank since i was 8 years old n frank has done nothing but loved n cared for his players, he has always treated his team like it was his family. n he still does that even with the varsity team. especially this year, he has never cared so much for a team n done so much for a team n has put up with so much for a team. u dont see many coaches doing waht he does. he tries so hard to make it work, so hard to get us together, so hard to teach us the meaning of playing with ur heart. now thats a coach. yes frank does have his times where he will point out a person n tell them waht they r doing wrong. but have u ever listened to him n said he was wrong, have u listened n thought he might be helping u?no, the things he says r true, he is very honest. n hey some people just dont like honest people, they would rather here false facts bout them so their self esteem can go up. but thats not what makes a TEAM better. frank has always said the truth to every single individual on the varsity team. never just one girl or two, every single person. i can sit here n tell everyone that those who sit n critizie frank, i can say ur selfish, n i can say ur rude n i can say ur disrespectful. i say ur selfish cuz u ignore the one who is trying to help u most, u ignore the only coach that will ever care so much bout a player. n i can say ur selfish cuz u worry to much bout urself than the TEAM. u individuals know nothing bout a team, NOTHING. i can sit here n say ur rude cuz ur just pointing out the honest things frank does like telling u what u did wrong. n i can say ur rude cuz u publicy announce how u feel bout someone after a game or announce it through livejournal. im all for freedom of speech but honestly shut the fuck up already! like i said say what u want but say it within people that feel the same way as u n im pretty sure their is only two people that feel the same way. now i dont sit n say names to who these people r but im pretty sure they know who they r. just stop. ur making a fool of urself, so many people have lost so much respect for u in ur attitude n ur actions n ur words. on our varsity team, on any team, not everyone gets to play. but sometimes u need to understand why not everyone gets to play. n sometimes u just need to sit on that bench n cheer ur team on. every player has a role for their team. mine sometimes is cheering on my team n guess what i never stop. i take that role n i make it the best i can. sometimes my role is being on the field n i take that role n make it the best i can. im on a team n that means filling whatever role i can to make my teammates better n my team as a whole better. yes i agree it does suck not to play all the time but the ones who r playing r getting pumped up by me n the others sitting on the bench cheering them on. nothing is better then saying i cheered my team on, i did what i needed to do that game, i helped them play better in some way. if u dont feel that on the bench, n all u feel is hate n anger cuz ur not playing, ur selfish. ur not a team player n i dont want u to be my teammate. so to the girls that arent on the team or got cut or quit, ask urself if u ever had that attitude or did u just sit on that bench n be negative. i guarantee u if u were to sit on that bench n cheer ur team on, nothing else would matter. i would do anything for my team, sit on the bench,be a manager cuz i cant play, cheer for them, play with them, shag balls behind the net, ANYTHING just to be apart of them. it doesnt get any better then that. now im pretty sure i didnt say everything i feel cuz i would rather say it to some peoples face but this kinda sums it all up. so im going to say again, please please please if u have something to say or disagree with me, come talk to me, say it to my face. i would love to prove u wrong.
so to end this im going to say, I FUCKING LOVE FRANK PALETTA N THE
MHS GIRLS VARSITY SOCCER TEAM!!8-2-2 n still going!!
back off bitches.
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[Thursday
January 5th, 2006 at 3:22pm] |
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funeral=no good.
moises awake is tonight 4-9 and the ceremony starts at 7.
tomorrow is his burial.
:( miss u moises.
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[Monday
January 2nd, 2006 at 5:34pm] |
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a new year is suppose to be a good one. one u will cherish n create a memory that will last forever. a good memory. a memory that fills ur heart n brings happiness.but no, not this new year. this new year brought a memory. but only a bad one. a memory that i will never forget.a memory of the day i lost my friend.
.moises castro.
all i can say to myself right now n every other day is he died happy. he died doing what he loved. riding his street bike. that was his life, he was always with it, wouldnt go anywhere without it. yea he did some crazy shit on it but he always had a smile on his face. he was never scared, never scared to die. he was an amazing person. the sweetest they came. he was known by everyone n he will be remembered by everyone. i love moises n he will be tucked in my heart forever. i will wear a smile on my face everyday for him n know he is in a happier place now n im sure he is still riding that damn bike.
edit; live ur life to the fullest but always be careful. never take anything for granted cuz u never know when u can lose everything.always end ur day with a smile, no matter how horrible it was. n never go to bed mad at someone cuz u never know if that will be the last u see them.
R.I.P. MOISES CASTRO
JANUARY 1,2006
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[Saturday
November 26th, 2005 at 2:35pm] |
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i got a puupy :)
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[Thursday
November 24th, 2005 at 2:33pm] |
so let me just tell u that waking up on Thanksgiving day with ur car being egged, is fucking great!!!NOT!!!
FUCK YOU to whoever did it!!!i didnt do shit to anyone n whoever did it is an asshole..at least have a reason to fucking mess with my car.
HAVE A FUCKING GREAT THANKSGIVING!
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[Wednesday
November 9th, 2005 at 8:44pm] |
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soo basically im hating life right now. and yes im going to use this entry to complain bout everything that is going on cuz im in one of those moods n just need to let it all out by writing it..so i dont know what has been going on with me latley but i just have been like really depressed latley. im having problems with my dad n im just not getting along with him n i never want to talk to him. my brother is having problems n he is so far away n i feel like i cant do anything to help him. all i can do is talk to him n i dont even talk to him that much.its hard n itrs frustrating for me cuz i wish i coul help him. then comes school, i fucking hate it like always. but thats like all i can say cuz its school..now comes the guys. which is my biggest problem right now n i dont know why. i just feel like everytime i like a guy, i either get led on n get hurt or he has a girlfriend or just doesnt like me. i always end up getting hurt n im just so done with it, i cant handle liking guys anymore. it tears me apart.i know it shouldnt tear me apart as much as it does but i just feel like i need someone to be there for me to make me happy right now. i have been single for sometime now n im done being single. i have waited long enough n for once, i think i might actually know what i want with a guy. but i wont be able to prove it to myself cuz once i start liking a guy, something always happens. i just wish i could find someone who likes me for me. n for once, im actually caring bout what guys r saying bout n i hate that. cuz what they think bout me drives me crazy. cuz then i take myself apart n pick out all the bad stuff bout me. i just think that since guys dont like me, everything single thing bout me is wrong.so i just feel like giving up on guys but then i dont want to cuz i want to find someone who i can be happy with n share something with. so like i have been, i guess all i can do is wait n try to find someone that makes me happy..but i cant rush it even tho i havent..n my next biggest problem is friends. i have lost a lot of friends this year n i dont know why. i thought i had one the closest friends ever but then she slipped away...nothing ever happened between us but somehow she just stopped talking to me. so i lost my closest friend n have nobody now. but then again, im getting closer to some soccer girls n also one my oldest best friends liek basically my sister which is sooo good cuz i love her to death n have missed her!!but i just have felt like a complete loner at school n everything cuz i basically am..im always by myself n really have nobody to talk to. but i cant really do anything bout that n i know its just a phase but o well..im over it. i just have been so down on myself latley n i feel like everything i do or say is wrong..i just feel like falling apart latley n just like giving up on everything but thats not me. i dont give up n i dont let people take over my emotions..i need to figure our who i am or who i want to be n maybe that will help some things............
edit; i definatly didnt write this to get any sympathy or anything, i just needed to write it to get out some of my feelings.
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[Saturday
October 22nd, 2005 at 12:41pm] |
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you always seem to me make the happiest girl ever, just by you putting a smile on my face and making me laguh; i wish i could do the same for you.....
♥
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[Tuesday
October 11th, 2005 at 9:48pm] |
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so i finally got my homecoming dress!!i think its way cute..but now i just dont know if the group im suppose to go with is even doing what we said we were doing..ugh who knows, its confusing..but im definatly going to homecoming now! yay!
here it is....
oh and the game on friday was definatly amazing! best game yet, it was such a comeback for moorpark! woo!
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[Tuesday
October 4th, 2005 at 9:17pm] |
where did everyone go for homecoming dresses? i went to three malls in the past weekend n i have found NOTHING!! i need to get a dress within like this week or im not going to homecoming :(
so any suggestions on where to go?!
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[Saturday
October 1st, 2005 at 1:43pm] |
so last night was definatly such a horrible night n also way scary! #%@$!
i never would of thought that the things that happened last night could ever happen..
definatly a reality check.
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[Monday
September 26th, 2005 at 9:48pm] |
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.life right now is so blah.
definatly dont do anything except go to school n tutoring n physical therapy. n i hate school, i cant stand it. but o well, i cant do anything bout that. i truly think the only thing that is keeping me happy is the o.c. (as sad as that is) and monica. i dont know what i would do without those two things/people in my life. but i just feel like im alone latley n i keep thinking i need a guy to make me feel wanted or not alone. it sucks cuz i hate depending on a guy cuz when i do, i never find one..so basically my life blows right now.
o, im definalty thinking bout deleting this livejournal cuz i never get any comments or anything n i rarley update it; actually i like never update. n homecoming is definatly coming up n i have NO date n NO dress..yea im so gonna have a blast! NOT ! but maybe/hopefully if everythings works out me drea monica ash michelle will be going to dinner at the beach in a limo before the dance..so that would be a blast!!but i hope it happens or else i dont know if im going cuz im not gonna have a date, how sad is that?!
i kinda feel like i have lost a lot of friends just from the past four weeks which sucks. i like only have monica n i know i can always count on her to be here for me. but like all my other close friends that i used to hangout with during summer, well we just dont hangout anymore. n we definatly need to change that but im definatly not feeling like anyone wants to hangout with me anymore. nobody calls me or even talks to me online anymore. so thats basically why i only hangout with monica, well i love her too....haha.. i just want all my old friends back from summer. i want to go back to summer!
i HATE school! basically, it ruins my life !
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